it seems to me that it's been a while since i've written anything... musically or otherwise. it's not for a lack of trying. i've been too busy, or far too tired.
approximately two years ago, i joined a comedy band. it was supposed to be an if-you-need-me-and-i'm-able-to-make-it kind of "joining". it took all but two shows and a couple of practices for me to realize that i wasn't just going to be part-time. we played everything from 80's hair metal, to hip hop, to acoustic rock, and everything in between. and i was given the opportunity to play just about whatever instrument i wanted to play. what i did not realize, though, was that i had slowed my writing/creating down to the point of almost nothing... an almost year and a half long battle between my notebook and my brain!
the band has since separated and i've kick started my writing, again, with a song written the day before and the day of my older brother's wedding. i found myself thinking about him and it hurt. it hurt to write a song and think, "well, that phrase works so well with this one" and "lyrically, i like how much this song portrays the struggle".
and then it sinks in.... wow, i just wrote that i haven't spoken his name in days, weeks, and months! suddenly, the song i've just invested myself in accidentally becomes a song with strong meaning. then, i'm not sure if i should feel bad for thinking (let alone singing) these thoughts. i guess this is what growing older and wiser is all about.
onward and upward.
i'm very proud of everything i've done over the passed years, and, hopefully i will maintain this (at least more than once everything 2-3 years!!)
